In January of this year I decided to start a "life change" and take off the extra weight for good. I didn't care if it took me 2 years to lose 50 pounds, I just wanted to do it healthy this time. I have mitral valve prolapse (MVP), which is a heart condition where the mitral valve in my heart doesn't work properly and allows blood to seep out of the valve. My cardiologist encourages me every year to lose weight, but at the very least exercise 30 minutes a day and lower my cholesterol. By January 2013, I was having issues regularly with my MVP, my cholesterol was over 200 and my doc was talking medication to lower my cholesterol (I take a pill for my MVP, but I hate popping pills so adding another was a depressing though). On top of that, I was exhausted all the time, not motivated to do anything, not even write. Twelve hours of sleep a night wasn't helping. Going up a flight of stairs to my bedroom winded me to the point my husband was remarking on it. My self-esteem bottomed out, I didn't care what I looked like, so I rarely tried to look nice. I knew something had to be done. And soon because I was killing myself.
My cardiologist just wanted me to exercise, but because I insisted on a program to help with my weight, he suggested Bariatrics. I hate asking for help. I mean, seriously, despise asking for help. I think subconsciously I see it as a weakness in myself, even though I never mind helping others and I'm eager to help friends. By the time I ask for help, I should've asked ages ago. So making that call in January to Bariatrics was hard because I was asking for help with something I'd failed at on my own time and time again. Another blow to my self-esteem.
Since January I've lost 29 pounds with a semi-exercise program, by semi I mean I'm rarely consistent. Today was my 4 month weigh-in and I gained 4 ounces. That was tough to take. I hadn't gained weight since I started the program and I'd done everything I'd been doing for the past 4 months. But maybe it's what I need to focus consistently on my exercise.
Side note: Even my complexion has improved and I don't look tired all the time any more. It's amazing what healthy nutrition can do for you.
So...you want to see me after 4 months and 29 pounds? Here ya go, the new me, with hopefully a newer me to come in the months to follow:
(Had to change shirts because the other one is too big now)